Friday, June 8, 2012
Things have been ging along pretty well lately. I mean, I'm not pregnant, but I haven't had much heart in it anyway lately. But in a couple of days is our annual family trip. We head up to lake Powell for a few days on a houseboat. There are about twenty of us. Yup, all of my husbands siblings and their kids. And of course there is a newborn (about three weeks old) and a very pregnant sil. I know I can make it through it all, but I just don't want to even feel sad or jealous. I'm tired of all of it. I just wish i could go back to my old self. But that is impossible now. I'm a different person. I will not show any of the pain though. I will hold it in until I can be alone and cry my little eyes out. Luckily my hormaones are pretty normal right now. But we will see. Maybe I will have to blog from the lake and reach out!