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- infertilemyrtle
- Simple girl looking for the one thing that I have been wanting my whole life, a child. Sounds easy right? Well, not the case here...
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Vacation
I love to travel. It could be near or far, I don't care. I just love exploring and seeing new things. Since we have started down this road of TTC, we have not done much of it. I always think, but what if I'm pregnant. What if I plan some amazing vacation, and then I'm sick with morning sickness. What if it is in the way of my ovulation? All of these what ifs. I can travel for my work as a buyer to amazing countries around the world. But it is hard work and it probably wouldn't be the best idea to be preggers doing it. India, Nepal, and Bali. All of them I need to get back to for work. But it has all taken a back burner seat. My family is meeting up in the Keys this winter. I couldn't book my tickets for so long, because what if? I finally just did it today. And still I think "I hope if I 'm newly pregnant I'm not sick" Stupid right? Ugh. I just keep thinking this month is it! Imagine if I get to Florida, and I can tell everyone that I'm finally going to have a baby! That would be the best!
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Wow. Wow. I am not alone, huh? I can relate to almost EVERYTHING you have written here. From your past - to your present - to what you see as your future! Geez, I couldn't have stumbled upon this at a better time. I was beginning to think that all the infertility blogs were consumed with people who have been trying for years and years and have gone through all these cycles of acronym type drugs. Thank you for sharing. No really, thank you.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for reading this and responding. It is so funny that we feel that way because we think trying naturally for over a year does not make us tough enough! It really is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. And I'm sure it is the same for all of us:) I am going to check out your blog! It has really helped me so much already. I think there are so many of us out there, and somehow we all feel pretty alone. I don't think that anyone can understand unless they have been going through it. We got to stick together!!
DeleteI started following your blog a little while ago, and I have very similar thought patterns as you. I have been trying for a year and a half, and I kind of feel like I am in a nightmare. After receiving news of a recent failed treatment a few days ago, I decided to book a trip for the Keys. Thanks for the blog, I really enjoy reading it.
ReplyDeleteWe deserve the vacation more than anyone! And the Keys will be perfect! Where are you going? I just can't wait to enjoy a delicious drink (something I could not do if I were pregnant;) sitting infront of the sunset, really relaxing. Thanks so much for reading. It really makes me feel better knowing that there are other girls out there feeling the same way. Sometimes it just feels so lonely and I start to feel crazy. Today someone said again, if I just stop trying it will happen. I wanted to rip her fertile head right off!
ReplyDeleteHaha, people can be very insensitive even if it is completely unintentional. We are looking for hotels now, somewhere on Duval street. I hear that is the place to be. Anything to keep my mind off the obvious!
DeleteHi! New follower, loving your blog! We cannot live our lives in what ifs. Take your vacation, make your plans. Life happens whether we want it to or not!
ReplyDeleteI know right? I checked out your blog too. I am totally coming out of my lurker shell too!
DeleteIf this was facebook, I'd like that response (for a split second I was looking for the thumbs up).
DeleteHello there, I came across your blog the other day and instantly understood and felt the same way you did. It was nice to come across a blog of someone who hasn't been trying for so long. Not that I don't love the ones that I follow that have been trying longer than I have cause they are full of advice, but it is nice to find someone close to the same stages in the process as I am. My sweet husband is taking me on a day trip tomorrow to Amish country for good food, awesome scenery and spending time together as we go to the Dr this afternoon to more than likely get a referral to an RE after 3 failed cycles of clomid. Not the path I thought I would be taking but oh well. The keys sound amazing and they are definetly one of the places I want to visit sometime!
ReplyDeleteI love day trips with my honey! Even though sometimes I feel lonely through all of this, I know my husband is right there with me. I think that going through this every month can make a relationship so strong!
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